I tried to played it cool, laugh things out but it all didn't work. I always had to pull a fake smile in front of everyone, making them think I'm fine. I try to be all hyped up, and be enthusiastic about things. But it's all useless. There are still times where I can't help but to feel helpless and just need a shoulder. You've always been there, but now you are not. And to make things worse, you won't be my side and won't be forever?
Where did the forever&always went? Why won't you give me another chance? This questions just cloud my mind. What's more, you tell me that you just wanna be friends with me. That's very very hurting.

I need a miracle, a miracle that could help us get back and would never separate, one that would make us be together like the forever&always we talked about. And 3 days without you. It totally feels like hell. Fuck it.
Please let the miracle happen on me please. I'm willing to turn over a new leaf.